Going to UK

SOOOOOO
This this is how I feel right now. I MUST GET OUT OF THIS COUNTRY. I MUST GET OUT OF THIS COUNTRY. And it's not such a good feeling you know..It's big discomfort and I'm nervous a lot. I just can't pay my rent here by doing stand up comedy, I hope time will change and I will develop as a comedian and can do gigs here for money, nice money. Untill then, I must go to London...the best way to do it is just to chop everyone quickly quickly.
I just realized that nobody is holding me here. Yet it's not simple, please if someone has gone out of their country, let me know how you felt. I do not like to immigrate. And all the people there will look at me like a weird guy, but at least I'll be a gentleman there, a comedian, and here I'm literally no one. My mother thinks I'm some kind of a punk and it's impossible to live out of comedy here. I think my parents are gonna be mad at me, and I don't like that. I know I'll stay friends with some people even though I'm going there. And I believe it's all gonna workout. It's gonna be great in London, I feel it already, it's my prognosis. But still I'm afraid and it feels awkward.
Also, there's no one to push me to London, I need to do it alone, everyone I know will just want me to stay here so that's not bug help. I need to be my own inspiration and support.
Just wanted to share my opinion with others that feel the same, that understand me cause they're on the same path.

Peace :D :D

Peace :D :D

SMART ASS

I hate myself that I'm like this. A WEEEEIIIRRRD thing happened today. I was yelling on my friend who ows me money to give me back my money. And then I realised: he's fucked up and I'm fucked up the same way he is. And I'm yelling at him. I should yell at myself. So, I was thinking half an hour later how I'm mirroring it all back to myself. He's a mirror to me. I should be more responsible, serious in life GOD DAMN IT, IT'S LYFE, it's not some crazy rollercoaster of mine, I need to get out there and fight. And that's what I'm gonna do. And I'm gonna succed.