Lousy holidays without her

So...that's the way it is, for those that read before and are familiar and those who aren't- that's the way it is....I love her, and she is in love with me and I'm not afraid to say it, but we have some barriers, as she's is my psychoterapist and she has a long-distance boyfriend so everything is so fucking complicated and we can't just be together like sane, normal people. No, so I wrote her a message for Christmas: "Merry Christmas gorgeous", she replied and wished me too. I know when there is some chemistry between us, you know when you just knooooow? you know, your heart knows, and your body knows for 100% that there's something between you. Yet, it's awkward to say cause, she's a therapist, but I'm gonna say it to her now. I'M MAD AS HELL AND I'M NOT GONNA TAKE IT ANYYYMOOORE. Hehe, you know that movie? :) anyhow, yeah, that's how I feel so I need to say it to her. Don't know how, well, got a few ideas but I'm gonna tell her, next time I see her, in 10 days that I like her and that I have feelings for her, strong feelings. She can feel it too as an empath, I'm positive. Of course I gotta be the one who's gonna say it first cause she is a therapist and she mustn't, but I can, and I will.......:D

Aand it's on and I'm ready for it!!!!

Hey yo guys & girls and you teens and you 50 year olds, how is it going?? good? pretty good? pretty pretty good? ok, just good. I see. Well, I've been FABULOUS. I gotta tell you a secret, the girl that I'm in love with, well, I believe she loves me back. I can't explain you this feeling. Ok, I can try: it's really, really good and really really bad on the other side. It's like being 250% in love, 280% in love approx. and at the same time feeling the guilt that it's somebody else's girlfriend...FOR NOW...:D Yes, that's it. I'm happy because I have such a great progress with her. I can feel our love blossoming and growing day by day. Today, she needed me for a gathering with psychologists and psychiatrist where I talk about myself and my life's decisions in front of 6 people and her, while she's the psychiatrist. This was like an exam for her to pass the psychiatry school she's taking. I NAILED IT!! NAILED IT!! The people there are great and positive and they were really delighted with me. And she was too. I know it. So now we are exchanging texts, and every time it's more and more personal and deeper and on an intimate level. Which I looooove. I hate being on a business level with her. HATE IT. So now, we're coming back to normal let's say. And I love it, I just love it. Heaven knows what tomorrow will bring. Don't know when was the last time I felt so God damn good!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope you're feeling good too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yooooohoooooooooooooooo
Peace my bastards
Love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) : ) :)))))))