Lousy holidays without her

So...that's the way it is, for those that read before and are familiar and those who aren't- that's the way it is....I love her, and she is in love with me and I'm not afraid to say it, but we have some barriers, as she's is my psychoterapist and she has a long-distance boyfriend so everything is so fucking complicated and we can't just be together like sane, normal people. No, so I wrote her a message for Christmas: "Merry Christmas gorgeous", she replied and wished me too. I know when there is some chemistry between us, you know when you just knooooow? you know, your heart knows, and your body knows for 100% that there's something between you. Yet, it's awkward to say cause, she's a therapist, but I'm gonna say it to her now. I'M MAD AS HELL AND I'M NOT GONNA TAKE IT ANYYYMOOORE. Hehe, you know that movie? :) anyhow, yeah, that's how I feel so I need to say it to her. Don't know how, well, got a few ideas but I'm gonna tell her, next time I see her, in 10 days that I like her and that I have feelings for her, strong feelings. She can feel it too as an empath, I'm positive. Of course I gotta be the one who's gonna say it first cause she is a therapist and she mustn't, but I can, and I will.......:D