Can I leave my heart in here and travel to London??

That would be the easiest. But still no. I still wouldn't do it. I'd like my family to be proud of me and not just to run away like a coward. I mean I'm not a people pleaser and don't care about what others think or expect of me but still...running away is not an option, not like this right now. I need to forget about my emotions (and how fucked up I feel in here now) and think with my rational mind: no, going to London right now is not a good idea. Why not? Because most of ALL I want this girl right now, and I want to prove to everyone that I'm not crazy (even though I appear to be to all the 'normal' people) but that I'm perfectly normal and that I can fit in in this crazy society. That's my primal goal at the moment. To fit in. Not by acting like everyone else, no , not that kind of fitting in, but going in the other direction (and awakening) that I'm going to and still be able to find friends, have a girlfriend and GIG somewhere, cause that's what comedians do. And I don't need London to do that. I can do it here. It's harder, but it's a challenge right there. Can you do it? And will you? YES I WILL! :D

Actually, It's a win-win situation for me (let's call it that way). If we make it out and fall in love, I'll stay here, if not, I'll fly to London finally...Okay, we'll see... But I don't want to go yet. The Universe conspired things to make them happen like this. We've got to respect the universe. Who are we to spite the universe? That's unhealthy...