She is still here...

...In my mind though...I keep thinking about her. I never realised that this situation could of happen, of my visit to the psychiatry that I would meet maybe a love of my life and maybe a stranger just passing by...will see...but you see, you never know which cards life (or God) deals you, and you can expect nothing! Yet everything! It's so weird. Was any of you in such a situation? Feel free to message me on Twitter, or don't...hhehe...:D It's totally weird and unbearable...I don't know the income and that's what it's itching me. ehhhh maybe I should tell her more that I like her? What should I do? I mean, she gave me all the signals, kissed me in the mouth, hugged me a zillion times, told me that she loves my company, whispered to my ear once when we were in a company that she is gonna "get that anger out of me"... she did all of that in such a nice, sensible way. Now it's my turn. Or our turn. I don't know. What does her boyfriend think. I don't wanna hurt anyone's feelings. Maybe I'm just thinking too much ahead. Yeah definitely. I called her out on a theatre play and now we will see, I'm waiting for her reply, she said she might of come perhaps. So, we'll see what the stars say...It's all written up there anyway. At least we have this honest and intimate (but quiet) relationship. :P hehe. Love you guys! :)

She was here

(To understand this post, please read the one before. )

She was here, yet, like she wasn't. This must be horrible for her. Seeing one man and having feeling for the other. Maybe it feels good to her, too. I don't know, I'm not her so how could I know? Ok, relax, relax, heheh, I get all tensed up just thinking about the 1000000 versions that could happen out of THIS. "THIS" that only I and her know. We know each other like for a million years. It's strange. I mean it's not. I read that that's how two soul mates and twin flames feel. Exactly the same. I bet she feels it too. I can feel it. This connection we have is something real. It's not just some passing thing. It won't pass. Not like that. It's been lasting for 7 months already for God's sake. We gotta do something about it. And yeah, we arranged that going to the theatre play finally, FINALLLYYYYYYY. She also asked me if I had any girlfriends and what does my perfect girlfriend look like; I replied: She must have integrity, be honest, she must have an open heart and be open for communication, empathic and compassionate. All that she is.

I belive she is confused. She doesn't know which one to choose, either me or her current boyfriend. But I believe that's normal, to be a little confused. We all want to know the future, yet nobody can predict it exactly as it will be and that makes us anxious, plus the only idea that she has to choose now, after being 10 years in a relationship, can be overwhelming for her. But I, as my 30 year old cousin too think that she is strong enough for it and that she is gonna make the right choice. whatever it will be. And you, out there, if you're in some kind of dilemma, I double dare you mother fucker to look at this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6AN_OTA_keQ . And if you're in some kind of doubt, this video is for you. It's not just some kind of Budhistic new age bullshit crap to brainwash you and make you believe something else, it really resonates with who you really are and "talks to your being". Mooji is great, just don't watch him too much cause you can get some headache, as I did and, just don't ,ok. One video is enough, don't cross the line, please, for God's sake. That's it my fellows, enough internet for today. Hear ya all next time, and let me know if you liked the blog on twitter.

She needs some time, all she needs is some time, right?

P.S. I love you.

Ciaoooo

Yours sincerely,

a 23 years old. ;D

Not a typical love story......

So, here goes the story. I was locked up on a psychiatry for minor problems with anger (I flipped at my uncle and he got scared, nothing serious). So, there I was for a few weeks. As soon as I came there, there she was! "Hi"- she said... a psychiatrist, wanted to talk to me (because she had to). "Hello", I replied...AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT FEELING I HAD, AN IMMEDIATE CONNECTION to her, sparkles everywhere around us, you could feel that. My dark psychiatry days were suddenly blossomed and shined by the beauty of her soul. I don't know what happened there, but something did. Sooooo...as I went out of the psychiatry 2 weeks after, as my family got scared for me (because of my uncle), they decided to take a psychiatrist for me, and I picked her (of course). I mean she is sooooooo lovely! She let me massage her hand in the psychiatry I will never forget that good vibes we shared. So, after that, I continued to see her at my home. The sparkles were just sprinkling around as we went on to communicate on our sessions...we did that for 7 months, every week. once in a week. After 2-3 months she suggested that we go out on a drink, but I got a bit scared because I'm only 23 and she is around 30 and I have no experience with that women. Sooooooo, long story short we kept on sharing the good vibrations and my soul felt so attracted to her (I believe she feels the same). I love everything about her. Except one thing: she has a boyfriend. WRAH! Story killer, I know. She told me that not long time ago. I felt devastated, but that's life. Now we keep seeing each other on our sessions and I'll call her once again on that drink because she seems so nice. What do you say? Best of luck? Well, thank you, thank you... :) :) Hear you soon ppl. I got a question, btw.: When is she gonna be mine???